You think on one thing, and you are doing something else. But you want to put into practice what you think, so there is this gap between action and thought; and then you ask how to bridge the gap, how to link your thinking to your action.
Now, when you want to do something very much, you do it, don’t you? When you want to go and play cricket, or do some other thing in which you are really interested, you find ways and means of doing it; y never ask how to put into practice. You do it because you are eager, because your whole being, your mind and heart are in it.
But in this other matter you have become very cunning; you think one thing and do another. You say, ‘That is an excellent idea, and intellectually I approve, but I don’t know what to do about it, so please tell me how to put in practice’—which means that you don’t want to do it at ll. What you really want is to postpone action, because you like to be a little bit envious, or whatever it is. You say, ‘Everybody else is envious, so why not I?’, and you just go on as before. But if you really don’t want to be envious, and you see the truth of envy as you see the truth of a cobra, then you cease to be envious, and that is the end of it; you never ask how to be free of envy.
So what is important is to see the truth of something, and not ask how to carry it out—which really means that you don’t see the truth of it. When you meet the cobra on the road, you don’t ask, ‘What am I to do?’ You understand very well the danger of a cobra, and you stay away from it. But you have never really examined all the implications of envy; nobody has ever talked to you about it, gone into it very deeply with you. You have been told that you must not be envious, but you have never looked into the nature of envy; you have never observed how society and all the organized religions are built on it, on the desire to become something. But the moment you go into envy and really see the truth of it, envy drops away.
To ask ‘How am I to do it?’ is a thoughtless question, because when you are really interested in something which you don’t know how to do, you go at it and soon begin to find out. If you sit back and say, ‘Please tell me a practical way to get rid of greed’, you will continue to be greedy. But if you inquire into greed with an alert mind, without any prejudice, and if you put your whole being into it, you will discover for yourself the truth of greed; and it is the truth that frees you, but your looking for a way to be free.
QUESTIONER: Why are our desires never fully realized? Why are there always hindrances that prevent us from doing completely as we wish?
KRISHNAMURTI: If your desire to do something is complete, if your whole being is in it without seeking a result, without wanting to fulfill—which means without fear—then there is no hindrance. There is a hindrance, a contradiction only when your desire is incomplete, broken up: you want to do something and at the same time you are afraid to do it, or you half want to do something else. Besides, can you ever fully realize your desires? Do you understand? I will explain.
Society, which is the collective relationship between man and man, does not want you to have a complete desire, because if you did you would be a nuisance, a danger to society. You are permitted to have respectable desire like ambition, envy—that is perfectly all right. Being made up of human beings who are envious, ambitious, who believe and imitate, society accepts envy, ambition, belief, imitation, even though these are all intimations of fear. As long as your desires fit into the established pattern, you are a respectable citizen. But the moment you have a complete desire, which is not of the pattern, you become a danger; so society is always watching t prevent you from having a complete desire, a desire which would be the expression of your total being and therefore bring about a revolutionary action.
The action of being is entirely different from the action of becoming. The action of being is so revolutionary that society rejects it and concerns itself exclusively with the action of becoming, which is respectable because it fits into the pattern. But any desire that expresses itself in the action of becoming, which is a form of ambition, has no fulfill mind. Sooner or later it is thwarted, imbedded, frustrated, and we revolt against that frustration in mischievous ways.
This is a very important question to go into because, as you grow older, you will find that your desires are never really fulfilled. In fulfillment there is always the shadow of frustration, and in your heart there is not a song but a cry. The desire to become—to become a great man, a great saint, a great this or that—has no end and therefore no fulfillment; its demand is a ever for the “more”, and such desire always breeds agony, misery, wars. But when one is free of all desire to become, there is no state of being whose action is totally different. It is. That which is has no time. It does not think in terms of fulfillment. Its very being is its fulfillment.
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